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My Reckless Abandon – out now!
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credits:
Video: Samantha Monendo @sammonendo
Edit & Animation: Alex Siegel @huhalex
Additional Graphics: Wyatt Knowles @wyatt.knowles
lyrics:
i let you treat me bad cause i hate myself
there’s a screw or two loose everybody can tell
is your Lexapro working?
you haven’t called me in months
just say you made a mistake
and you regret what you’ve done
i’d forgive you if you come back
you know i love when it ends like that
when it ends like that
i love to blame myself
it’s all on me when it goes to hell
but this time i don’t think that’s true
yeah this time i think that you
really fucked up a good thing
i’m done begging you to love me
i’m not perfect, not ever
but i still deserve better
yeah i still deserve better
i deserve, i deserve, i deserve
i deserve better than a narcissist
when we’re
screaming at each other
god i live for this
why am i
saying i’m sorry again
you’re so sweet in my head
but you’re not how i dreamt you
i’d forgive you if you come back
you know i love when it ends like that
when it ends like that
i’d forgive you i always do
i’d scratch and bite and bleed for you
for you
i love to blame myself
it’s all on me when it goes to hell
but this time i don’t think that’s true
yeah this time i think that you
really fucked up a good thing
i’m done begging you to love me
i’m not perfect, not ever
but i still deserve better
yeah i still deserve better
i deserve, i deserve, i deserve
yeah i still deserve better
i deserve, i deserve, i deserve
help me make sense of it
or tell me what i did wrong
i just wanted to love you
i just wanted to talk
can you tell me can you say
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
it’s not my fault
It’s not my fault
it’s not my
Views: 20,546
Published: July 13, 2026
Channels: Bella Kay
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